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Fall is here!

Tue, 04 Nov 2008 02:56:02 GMT

Good evening!

So its been a month since I've updated, therefore I think I'll go ahead and post an update :@)

Things are going good in life. At work I am doing really well at Allstate. I recently have gotten feedback on my contentions and the QA person has written nothing but positive remarks about my work. I'm really excited as this is a great opportunity to eventually move up the ranks. Apparently in my department there is little room for advancement, but the big opportunities with Allstate involve working for what we call "Home Office" aka Chicago. I already established with my Department manager during the interview process that I am willing to move if the opportunity beckons.

Money is becoming an issue as I'm paying bills and at the end of the month I'm still taking moeny from savings. I am looking for a third job (yes a third job) to help raise money...which I am going to need for next year.

Speaking of....Next year I am moving. When I was at Udel for homecoming, Sarah (a friend of Allison's) mentioned me, her, Allison, and Kelly getting a house in either Manayunk or Philly. I mentioned I would settle in either Ardmore or Manayunk, but I can't do Philly. Benda is moving out next year, and I think after 3 and a half years, I'm ready to move on.

Life in general is good....I have a lot more free time then I ever did which is bittersweet. I'm not as stressed as I used to be when I used to work under the wrath of ACS, and am a lot happier with myself...I guess the worst of all of this lies with the fact (yes here's the kicker) that I get lonely. It's sad to admit, but I hate being by myself in this apartment sometimes and it sucks. Hed and I were talking about relationships and singleness, and such and she brought up the fact that sometimes it doesn't work when you try to hard....I'm a huge believer in this as I still believe that love comes when you least expect it. I guess my issue is that I don't know what i'm exactly looking for right now.

Singleness will definitly hit home this holiday....this will be the first year since 2004 that I've been single for the Holidays...I'm a little worried how this will play out with myself. Again I'm not desperate, but I'm just trying not to get myself down with it either....ok well i'm out!

HEEEY

Fri, 03 Oct 2008 22:51:12 GMT

I'm 26

wow

October is right around the corner!!!!!!!!

Sun, 28 Sep 2008 19:49:38 GMT

Hey LJ

So October is right around the corner and you know what that means.....The big 2-6!!!!

In other news I completed my 5th week at Allstate. The job is going well. I am learning pretty much everyday and trying not to get engulfed with information overload.

My sister is doing well at school. I spend Tuesdays with my mom as to try to help her deal with not having my sister around. I started Facebook so I could keep in touch with her and well its been almost 4 years out of college and its about time I got one anyway :@).

My bday is going to be a lot of fun. Thursday I'm going to NYC, Friday I'm not working at Allstate and will just spend the day doing whatever I want, Sat is my bday party! Sunday my family is taking me out so it will be a fun week indeed!!!

That is all for now. Life is moving quickly but awesomely!!!

xoxo

Life :@)

Tue, 26 Aug 2008 01:15:39 GMT

So life is grand!

I started my first day at Allstate....Very stoked to get involved with such a great company!!!

Wildwood was fun. I think I'm what I like to call "Beached-out" (i.e. sunburnt). I'm stoked this weekend is labor-day, but I don't have any defined plans yet...I'm kinda done with summer. Too much going on right now....bring on fall!

That is all for now.

Allan

August

Sun, 17 Aug 2008 14:10:40 GMT

Hey LJ

Such a flurry of activity in my daily life that I neglected to update in WOW 3 weeks!

As you know I've been focused entirely on interviewing and finding a new job...WELL I got a job with Allstate in their corporate office in Malvern. I'm SOOO stoked to start. Allstate is really a great company to work for, they scored 100 on the Equality Consumer Report (basically that means they're very LGBT friendly...which would make two LGBT friendly employers).

My last (yes FINAL last day this time...no going back) day at ACS is Tuesday. I will take Wednesday to spend time with my sister, Thursday she's going to Shippensburg and I'm pretty much damage control for my mom who will be crying the whole time.

And Friday is WILDWOOD!!! Woohoo! I start Allstate August 25th at 9am

Last night Jim had his third annual Jimstock. It was a good time until drama started. Hed got REALLY drunk and started running around being Hed, and Jim got pissed off at her and told her she was embarassing him and told her to stay in his room the entire night? Hed comes out crying and tells me to drive to Wawa to get cigarettes and rockstar. We go to Wawa and smoked (OMG my car is going to smell now great) Parliaments, and I basically tried to explain (also knowing that Hed last weekend told me how Jim doesn't pay attention to her and hinted to being unhappy) to Hed that I went through her mess last summer / fall. I don't think she listened or understood which was fine considering her inibreation (i likely butchered that). Josh and I both think things between them won't work out. Then Emily thought Steve was hitting on some girl and threw her engagement ring in the grass...so the rest of the night was spent trying to find her engagement ring and Jim's sister in law offered to get a metal dectector...wow that's old school.

As for me I am not dating anyone at the present moment. However not being in a relationship (and I look back to 2004, 2005, 2006, and 2007 and realize this will likely be my first full year single) I am starting to see how more independent I've become. I never felt so in control of my life...yes I'd like more time to do more things, but life has never been so fulfilling.

:@)

Ugh

Tue, 22 Jul 2008 12:56:05 GMT

I've never been so nervous.....

I could use a shot of whiskey...MAKES YA FEEL BETTER !!!!

That is all.

Here's to bettering my future ... pretend shot

Yay and Nay

Mon, 21 Jul 2008 04:48:13 GMT

Yay to:

- Awesome A.C. Trip (Pics to come)
- Potential Job with Aerotek or New York Life or Allstate (double crossing my fingers)
- Christmas in July Celebration ... and finding Hed an escort, I mean Date!
- A potential love interest ?
- Anonymous sex in Wildwood
- Reuniting with Shandy
- Cleaning the bathroom and seeing no more bugs...gross!
- Hanging up cheap but awesome Art
- Meeting my Action AIDS Buddy and playing boardgames outdoors :@)

Nay to:
- 6 days at work with the M.C.
- Having to stick a key in my shift-lock to get my car out of park
- stomach ulcers and I think I have one. Damnit work!
- The cost of living
- Realizing all my friends are engaged and moving on with their lives, and I feel like I haven't stepped an inch from where I started from.

That is all...

Life in general

Sat, 19 Jul 2008 01:09:19 GMT

Wanted to give an update about life.

I told my boss that I'm looking for another job this past Thursday. He was very understanding. Our department is being outsourced from what I'm hearing. Therefore I don't think at this point it really matters to them what my intentions are.

SOOO with that being said I am going on an interview with Aerotek as a recruiter. I think this is a GREAT match for me due to my personality, and skills. I also have an interview lined up with Allstate and interviewed with New York Life on snazzy City Line Ave. All is good !

Today was amazing. I went to the pool with my friend Shandy who we're starting to talk again :). We hung out at Starbucks (her boyfriend works there = free drinks), then I did dinner with Alex. Tommorow I'm going to the movies with my mom, then Josh, myself, and whoever are going to AC for the evening....fun fun !

I'll fill you in on the fun things that is called life.

Sun, 13 Jul 2008 16:22:21 GMT

Good Morning!

Wanted to update on this past week. July so far is flying which is scary to say the least. I'm taking pretty much the next two weeks off from Gap which will be a nice break. I'm going to work on interviewing, and finding a new job. This week there is a job fair in Philly I'm going to be attending, plus I will be taking time out for me. This is the part of the week I hate the most, I hate dreading getting ready for work. I love my position, don't get me wrong...I love call-volume management, I love managing people, I love resolving customer issues, and educating both my staff and supervisors. I hate the negativity, the "Why did you let this happen", the crap which I thought diminished with high school and college and APO (lol that was a joke people). I also hate working 2:30 - 11:30pm. This job is the reason my social life is so out of whack. Whatev.

I went on an interview Friday which went really well. I'm more confident then I was last year talking about my position, and what I do. I think being promoted this year really forced me to be more confident in what I do. I also think my boss does a great job giving praise and criticism which also has helped me boast my successes. The only issue that arose was I'm overqualified and my interviewer was like "Why are you here?". After explaining that I wouldn't not be bored and am deeply interested in food sales / vendor management, they hopefully believed me and will hire me based on the nice thank you letter I sent Friday.

In other news I am having a Christmas in July event. I'm uber stoked. It's going to be a blast. This past weekend was fun, nothing too fancy. Friday Alex came over for cosmos and watched 27 dresses which I passed out during the movie. Saturday I went to the pool for a little, worked, and went putt putt golfing with Hed, Josh, and Jim. We're all planning a mass Vegas trip next year which would be fantastic. I wanted to go to Vegas this year for my bday but with money, and my job situation, I'm trying to stay away from any big purchases.

I called my Action AIDS buddy this weekend. I'm going to visit him at the Calcutta house next Sunday morning. I'll fill you in on how the meeting goes. I'm really happy to be involved with Action AIDS. I got a nice letter saying I raised $95 in donations and $812 in restaurant contributions at Swanky Bubbles. I'm so doing Dining out for Life next year!

Anywho signinig out....wish me happy thoughts.

xoxo

Alpo

July 4th weekend

Sun, 06 Jul 2008 03:07:53 GMT

Good evening.

SOOOOO exhausted from a fun July 4th Holiday Weekend. Due to working Sunday, my weekend was cut short. However I had a TON of fun.

So Thursday I went to the Ardmore Pool as usual, got some rays, then I find out that everyone was meeting at Mainstreet in Glassboro and Annmarie was going to be there...so naturally I went. We did shots, played beerpong, and how I made it home (thank you GPS) was a surprise. Friday I went up to Steve and Emily's BBQ. I found out Hed is going back to Grad school this fall which I'm uber stoked for her...and more considering it. We all played Drunken DDR, Rockband, Jem (yes with a cassette tape). In addition I coined the new phrase "Happy 4th of July....HOW BOUT THAT!!!" (Think my deep "radio" voice). In a drunken excited state Emily and I decided I'm having a Christmas in July theme party (July 25th!), and I came to realize that some of the people that Josh went to High School with are still in High School (not that that's a bad thing...but at 25/26 who really blows up toy soldiers and throws them off tall buildings in West Conshy?).

Speaking of not wanting to grow up, My mom and I went to go see Wall-E today which was awesome. We had a fun time, I was still groggy and sleepy from lack of sleep (my leg was in pain last night from cramps and I got zero hours of sleep). I really don't want to go to work tommorow. I have an interview on Monday which I have to get prepped for. Plus there's a job fair next week and one on the 22nd.

I'm going to Wildwood in August!!! p.s. I need to go to the gym...i've been soooo busy I haven't had time to go.

p.p.s. I have to call my Action AIDS client tommorow...I'm officially a buddy.

Here's pics from the weekend. Happy July 4th!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A quick rant

Sun, 29 Jun 2008 17:28:48 GMT

So I was reading a recent Yahoo Article about a $25,000 dessert which was basically an Ice Cream Sundae with a gold spoon and some fancy bowl.

Ok we are in a hard-core recession. I know myself along with other Americans are basically going to work every day like its their last. I know myself I have designated my "will" in case I get canned "I want my colorful weekly project calendar (bought from Pottery Barn with MY own money), colorful file folders, pictures, and my stuff in my office NOT mailed to me but I'll meet you in the Mcdonalds parking lot and I'll get my stuff" I recently told my admin.

WHY are people wasting resources and money on stupid stuff like the fancy dessert? We could be putting that money toward more useful causes such as creating jobs, saving the environment, researching alternative forms of energy....It upsets me because if someone has that much money to spend on something trivial then they are the reason the Ice Caps in the North Pole are all gone. I work so hard to save up money that I have, and while I think i'm doing "Ok" I see someone throwing away 25 grand. Give me the money and I'll make you an Ice Cream Sundae!

Sun, 29 Jun 2008 05:02:56 GMT

Greetings !

June is two days from being finito, and I'm quite sad to part with the first month of summer. I managed to get to the shore, go to a summer concert, and I got to go on a fun date so all is not lost :@)

Aside from that, I've been working my butt off as in 55 - 60 some odd hours a week between both jobs. Its scary how the money is so good, but it slips right out of my hands. I bought a Blackberry which I like to think is a good investment right? I'm thinking of selling my camera online to raise some money, and in addition I also found online a Research Study that's being done by Penn....I'll make $1200 by participating and so I forwarded my info...we'll see. I'm currently looking for a new job (kinda like last summer's mess)....I've been on two interviews, which the first one was a fluke, and the second I came in they looked at my resume and said I don't have anough experience....blah.

Last weekend I went on my date with Phil. It was a stressful day between Gap and trying to get the apartment clean (yes anyone who will read this which is like no one will laugh at me b/c as I once put it...everything with me is a production). But no seriously I got the apt clean in case he was "Movie worthy"...well he came by 15 minutes early and we went to Plate in Ardmore for dinner. Then we went back to see Donnie Darko and he slept over (AND NOOOOOO WE DIDN"T DO ANYTHING I SWEAR LIVEJOURNAL) LOL. He's in South Carolina visiting his dad, but we're likely going to hang out upon his return to Illadelphia. So last Saturday was interesting and awesome to say the least. Allison and I went up to Drexel for the Popped 2008 Festival. The main reason we went was to see Vampire Weekend which is nothing less than AWESOME. Of coarse being an outdoor festival we brought our waterbottles full of alcohol, but pretty much drank them by the time the R5 stopped at 30th street station...soooo we were planning on there being alcohol vendors at the concert...WRONG. I had to actually finish what Allison brought, ate a hamburger and passed out on our blanket...when I woke up Allison went to get water, and then this guy comes up to talk to us...(see below pic). His name was "Riff" but I later found out his real name was Raphael...he was a Penn Grad and came to the conert himself b/c he thought he would see ppl from Penn there. So pretty much throughout the concert / festival it was the three of us which was fun. I got to see Mates of State live (my new fav song is "Goods"), and then Vampire Weekend came on....I think seeing them live had to of been the most amazing thing ever. "Walcott" was well done, and "Blakes got a new face" totally defined my summer 08. Well back to Riff, we all planned to hit the bars after the concert and went to this irish pub near the G'hood...ironic eh? I got sick from mixing Mikes Hard Lemonade (from earlier) with a previously eaten hamburger and hotdog, then PBR from the pub (hey it was like 2 bucks), so I threw up in the toilet. Allison's friend Tony came by to hang, and we all decided to go back to see Donnie Darko again (yes i'm a dork). Riff then decides to hold my hand and we cuddled and watched the movie....later we made out and he slept over. The next day I drove him back to philly but then got lost and ended up on I-95 South. All in all I guess due to us being half asleep, and he had to rush to Church, no digits were exchanged, but Allison had his from the concert and they texted each other. Oh well.

In other news this weekend sucked. I had to work both Sat and Sun at ACS for one of my supervisors who had to go to a party? Next Friday is July 4th and I actually have plans!!!! I'm going to Steve and Emily's party / BBQ, and everyone will hopefully be there. Then next Sat my mom and sister, and I might go to OCMD for the day.

I'll keep you posted on life's events :@)

<3 me

Here are pics from the concert!!!

Summer (cont.)

Thu, 19 Jun 2008 05:45:30 GMT

Dear LJ

Summer is going quite well as I must say I'm much happier than I've ever been. My sister graduated High School, we went up to Shippensburg for orientation which went well, and I'm even going on a date this week!

Pretty much all and all things are going the way I'd like. I'm really hopeful for the future. I came to the realization that I need to go back to school. My job is just not fulfilling for me. It would be almost a relief if I was laid off which scares me to think that way, but I don't have any time to sit down and do a full investigation into the job market. I so far went on one interview which was ok. I almost went on an interview with an insurance company Tues, but heard a lot of negative press online, and decided driving up to Allentown and spending god knows how much in Gas was not worth it. I want to go back to school and get my MSW. I'm going to look into Temple and St. Joes (my uncle got his Masters there, and could likely write up a letter of recommendation). I know my calling is to help others. I really can't complete my life journey without having a job that I wake up in the morning and get excited to go to work (oh and normal hours would help at that).

Ok so enough with work stuff, I'm going on a date Friday with a guy from Chemistry...I'll keep you posted! We're going to Plate in Ardmore, and I'm thinking of getting him to bring his Xbox over....he's a videogame addict (Score a gazillion points). Love it. We shall see...I'm very nervous being my second date since 1/23, and the first date being a fluke.

Saturday = Vampire Weekend concert = Uber-stoked !!!!

June

Mon, 09 Jun 2008 12:07:07 GMT

Hello LJ !!!

Wanted to update about life in general. Right now things are going well...working a ton, but the money is good. I've been hanging out with different people which is what I need right now.

My sister is graduating HS this Wednesday....High School! I can't belive i'll be going to another graduation, but I'm not the one graduating anymore. I love graduation time. I love summer. Other than that I'm going to Popped! 2008, a music concert at Drexel on the 21st. I'm super stoked b/c a new band, Vampire Weekend, i'm obsessed with. Plus Allison is going, plus we're planning on taking the R5 which means DRINKING!!!!

I haven't been seeing anyone new. But its funny how I feel that things will get better. Its like I know I'm going to find something good, I just don't feel the need to rush things.

I'm not planning on any vacations this year...Alex and I keep talking how we need to get away...I think once she ends her 90-Day at work we'll likely plan something.

I'll keep you posted on life.

Allan

June !!!!

Mon, 02 Jun 2008 02:43:02 GMT

June is looking to be a great month. The end of Spring, the start of Summer. My superstitious self tells me its an Even summer so it should be a good one (ever since Summer 2000, my even summers are waaay better).

Loooking back @ previous summers

Summer 2000 = PFEW, Mcdonalds crew, driving, getting ready for HS Graduation
Summer 2002 = West Chester, Camp Dreamcatcher, I got a car
Summer 2004 = Price Street, Ohio, Matt, Concerts (Jason Mraz, Maroon Five)
Summer 2006 = Three Musketeers, Cabin, friends, First hazy summer in the LM
Summer 2008 = ???

My sister is the one this year graduating HS which is crazy. She's going to Shippensburg University this year which I'm really glad for her. I wish the best for her! Next week is the big ceremony.

Today I went to OCNJ with Allison since her big graduation. She graduated from UDel Sat. We (Me, Josh, Hed) were going to go down Friday night for the bars / parties, but she had to move out so we 86'd the whole notion. So instead I took Sunday off and went to OCNJ. I got my Rita's, laid out on the ocean...the water was FREEZING but whatev. Seriously my summers are defined by daytrips, shore excursions, BBQs, hanging out with friends, Ritas...I know i'm not in college anymore, but that doesn't mean I have to give up the awesomeness that is my youth :)

Here's some pics from this past weekend !!!

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May 2008

Tue, 27 May 2008 04:48:47 GMT

Hey LJ

Just wanted to update you on life, and its craziness. Yes I have FINALLY come to the realization my days @ my current employer are coming to an end and I will be leaving my employer within the summer. Now before you all roll your eyes saying "He said the same thing last year", this time I mean it! I am far more confident with my skills then I was last year. I think this year I've been forced to grow a pair, and have gotten so used to my position, I'm ready to move on. I'll keep you posted.

Another reason why i'm leaving is i'm miserable. I'm sick of having to work every weekend for coverage. I'm sick of being orderded around by a certain someone. I'm tired of it.

Ok i'm done

May continued

Thu, 22 May 2008 04:58:01 GMT

First Congrats to Meghan and Steve on thier Engagement !!!

That's right Meghan out of all people (the one I bitched a lot in my 2004 Journal entries...LOL) is engaged. I love it. Alex loves her new job and is working part time at her country club. Heather is doing her thing with life and is probably next to get engaged.

I went on a date Sunday...LOL. It went ok I guess...he's a nice guy. We haven't corresponded today so its probably a fluke. And the one guy I really REALLY liked hasn't gotten back to me so he's 86'd me. I guess all in all i'm waiting for my turn in life. My promotion is nice, and I'm happy with everything, but I'm slowly becoming empty inside. All I do is work.

:(

Rainy Friday

Fri, 16 May 2008 18:40:06 GMT

Hey LJ

Well according to the last post, I had this fun excursion planned on my day off for tommorow. That was cancelled due to the fact I now have to work.

Its my only day off from work this week, and its a bone-chilly rainy Friday. I'm so upset, but I think I'll cope. I guess i'm upset about the fact that I actually got excited about someone who said they were interested in me on chemistry.com, and I haven't heard back from them. My month membership is almost up. I really can't afford to pay for another month, so that's it for me. It's not the end of the world right? And worse things could happen then a dating website.

Other than that work is going ok. I'm just stressed with all the workload that my higher ups pile on me. I mean its not common for me to go to work at 1-1:30pm and leave at 12:30am. The positives is that it keeps me busy and the time flies, but the negatives is that my life is literally FLYING in front of my face. I literally begin EVERY month questioning what happened to the previous month. Summer will be here in like a week, and I can't even begin to tell you where spring went. Other than that, I need to enjoy being 25. I need to have a life.

Josh and I are hanging out a lot lately. Wednesday night we went to the G-hood and met up with Samir. We were supposed to go up to see Jon, but that's been cancelled. My mom's bday is coming up on the 26th so we're going to likely go to dinner/movies, and June will be a crazy busy month with my sister's graduation.

I'll keep you posted on life. I think just writing this allowed me to vent my frustration out.

xoxo

<3 me

Chemistry.com, work, and my life journey.

Thu, 15 May 2008 16:10:32 GMT

So my chemistry.com membership is ending in 6 days according to when I paid....no dates yet. I'm kinda bummed out b/c of the fact I paid for it, I didn't get a return...well as of right now. I am talking to one guy via email, but I don't know if i'm what he wants....I was going to come right out and say it (Just b/c I don't want to waste anyone's time), but Josh told me it'd be better to give it a try (you never know they're may be a change of mind right?). Chemistry.com is quite interesting because the way it works is they send you matches, and you either say you're interested or 86. The ones you say are interesting they get an email saying you're interested in them. They then send you their "Relationship Essentials" and you send them yours. They then send you questions and you answer them. The thing that gets to me for instance is the fact I found one person I'm VERY interested in. We did the whole "Essentials" phase, but then he sent me these crazy questions (you can pick questions that chemistry sets up or make up your own...he made up two questions for me). I answered them to the best I could and then he never answered my questions. I know its been like a day, but I'm upset b/c of the effort I put in to answering these crazy questions. Whatev....I hope he is still interested....(Crosses fingers).

Work is going great. Its very consuming, but I m kinda upset b/c I heard a rumor the company is selling the building. This has been going on for a while, but know i'm like questioning if I should continue to work my ass off, only to be let go. What's the point? I'm looking at other companies, and weighing my options. We'll see!

Life is good. This weekend Josh and I (we're seriously like BFFs know that he's back in PA, and all our friends are in relationships) are going up to Bucks county for Jon's BBQ / New Hope excursion. Other than that I guess you could say I'm happy. I put all my credit cards away :)

May

Wed, 07 May 2008 06:43:42 GMT

Good Morning !

So I have to be up in 4 hours to get up, and take my car to the dealership to get fixed. My Key is stuck in the ignition....yep that's right.

I made up my mind. After this I am kissing credit goodbye. No more credit cards will be used. I'm going to start working on paying them down and keeping them out of reach.

Work is going well. A lot that I need to work on.

I'll keep you posted.

xoxo

Weird Dream

Fri, 02 May 2008 15:13:57 GMT

I had the craziest dream.

Patrick and I were in the same room for some odd reason.

Apparently we were making out and I'm assuming were going to have sex. He then turns and says "I'm so happy we don't have to worry about the pressure of having sex"

I blew up: WHAT ! Since when is there pressure to have sex with me !!!!

I freaked out and started crying. Then I woke up.

I had to get that out. It haunted me this morning.

May

Fri, 02 May 2008 04:16:12 GMT

So May is finally here. Mother's Day, Mom's Bday, Memorial Day, Summer?.

I went ahead and went on Chemistry.com and posted a profile. Heck I even paid like $49.95 to interact with people (why is it myspace is free yet I'm paying money for the same service?). Sounds quite ridiculous.

Tonight was Dining out for Life. It was fun. I kinda got bored toward the end of the night though...I was at Swanky Bubbles doing my meet and greet, taking donations and the such. I ate only a bowel of cereal before going, and when I got there after running around talking about Action AIDS for like 3 hours I was starved. I went to Wawa and gorged (Now I feel gross).

My mom's surgery went well which made me quite happy. I have to work this whole entire weekend which blows. I'm going to ask for some time off in two weekends. I feel like I'm on empty right now from all this stimuli.

Ok time for bed I'm exhausted and junk food out.

Wed, 30 Apr 2008 05:34:57 GMT

So a third of the year is almost over...how about that.

Today sucked majorly. I was talking to my mom this morning on the phone about Mar's financial aid and she goes "ooo I might need to call you back my back is hurting me"

Me: "Are you ok?"

Mom: "I will call you back later"

I called my mom later today and she kept complaining about her back. I went to work and then get a text that my mom is in the ER and is getting tests done on her. I then am notified my mom is getting gullbladder surgery. In addition our department head has been acting really weird at work. He keeps leaving during the day and hasn't been in communication with us that much. I'm worried something is going on. Rumors are people are starting to get laid off which makes me nervous. We've stopped marketing to customers which has driven our call volume waaay down, plus they laid off everyone in credit. Our production numbers in collections are horrific, and I told two people I wouldn't be surprised if we started reporting to collections....which if we did frankly I'd start looking for another job. It just bummed me out having to deal with that mess.

Josh's Bday is today !!!

Some food for thought

Thu, 17 Apr 2008 14:37:08 GMT

I talked on the phone with different people yesterday (you know doing the catching up thingie). Samir and I were just catching up, and he told me he "met a new friend". So the convo goes like this:

Me: I'm soooo happy for you. Are you guys dating?
Him: No, he's a "friend"
Me: So are you dating? Dating exclusively?
Him: What are you talking about?

Weirdville...I am in all honestly happy for him, don't get me wrong. It will be nice b/c I only ever wanted to be friends with him, and its nice that I won't feel like i'm leading him on. I just hope he doesn't get caught up in the whole relationship thing and forget everyone else. Driving to work yesterday, I was thinking about my turn....if I'll ever get another turn in love. There's so much I regret with how I acted when Patrick and I were together...I was so scared to lose what I had so I pushed it away. I was so in "what-if" mode and pretty much second-guessed everything. I was so asking for so much in everyting, I didn't appreciate what I had. I have to stop living in the past sometimes, and enjoy what I have now. In other words, I have to move on no matter how hard and painful it is at times.

Why do we go to work?

Wed, 16 Apr 2008 15:38:50 GMT

Just a question....why do we go to work?

Obviously bills and money. But what about making a difference? Learning new skills? Being productive? What about being told "Good Job". What happened to being praised?

In other news I downloaded the new Mariah Carey album on Itunes. I'm so loving this new album. Its way better than her last two albums hands down. Believe me, I've been a fan since 6th grade :@)

Wow she's been out that long!

I'm so cold today...I can't wait until it gets warmer out. I can't wait for shore excursions, Ritas, and summer madness. I'm not planning on any vacations this year, I m trying to get an HDTV so that's going to set me back.